Loving God.
I have loved God for the longest time.
Fleeing from sin like it was the plague
Fights with the devil over my decisions.
I no longer have a good angel and a bad devil sitting on either of my shoulders demanding I listen to them.
I took the red horned little loud mouth Atid and stuffed his mouth with the pages of the Bible.
The haloed white Raqib sits on my tongue now.
I avoid sin because…
I am scared of God.
Terrified that if I do He will punish me.
A gentle blow and He destroys everything I have built.
I vowed not to defile this temple lest my punishment be singleness.
I will tithe each month, the risk of being punished by poverty is not appealing.
I haven’t loved Him at all.
Just been petrified of Him.
Like He is a cruel father that would tease me with good things with the condition that I behave.
I have served myself ,
Trying to save myself by my own righteousness.
Obeying God as a trick to get Him to be good to me.
I haven’t loved God.
I have loved myself for the longest time.
By Vimbai Lole
Vimbai Lole is a young lady who has given up trying to understand God, given up trying to starve herself in the name of dieting, given up trying to change the world, given up trying to be an all rounder artist and given up trying to be awesome and cool. Instead, she is learning to love God with an uncompromising passion, to be healthy, to love people and to be happy .She has resolved to appreciating the art in others and hopes to live happily ever after.
