Learn to depend on God
I had a moment today where I just couldn’t take another step until I had talked to someone just to share what I was going through. Nothing was making sense and my usual enthusiasm was failing me. I’m beyond “why me” now but for that moment I found myself discouraged and positive thinking just wasn’t going to get me back on track.
So I took a detour on the way to my shop and landed at the only place that resembles home outside of my parents’ four walls and there I was able to let it all out in the safety of a place surrounded by God’s love. Side note its rough out there and we can only be grateful for places to call home where we can reach out in times of trouble and a hand reaches back to pull us up to safety.
It’s ironically a rare quality these days to find Christians who actually uphold the value system of honour, sincerity, compassion and a helping heart. Don’t get me wrong many of us are happy to wear the title but we often fall short on the basics especially where it counts the most. Just think of the number of us perpetrating the very things we pray against. I’ll leave it at that lest I attract stones.
I was able to share my story and the tears that managed to escape my tough resolve. In the course of the conversation my good friend mentioned that every season we go through is meant to teach us something and he spoke about how sometimes we need to learn to depend on God and then it hit me. What if the lesson of all lessons was to learn to depend on God?
What if it wasn’t about the circumstance but about your state of mind? It made so much sense because in everything I’ve ever had to go through one major outcome has been trusting God more. If it were easy it would come naturally, and we would never have to be reminded to keep our pride in check or to look both left and right before we cross the road but it doesn’t come naturally.
It really is kind of like a spiritually acquired taste to be learnt throughout the course of our lives and eventually when we catch it we can impact other lives around us with greater force than a list of do’s and don’ts. Nothing is more powerful than the revelations obtained from a true story shared by the one who lived through it.
Give thanks in ALL situations
No matter how spiritual you become you will never be able to see into the finer details of how God intends to bring His will to fruition. Yes some details may be revealed to you but that is the exception and not the rule. There are infinite obstacles you are saved from even before you get the wherewithal to pray about them this is the goodness of God, we cannot gain some kind of special insight of sneak preview on all the hardships we will overcome but when we have overcome we will understand at that point what it was we were truly up against.
I feel like God’s little speshy (special person) like He knows well in advance how badly I’m about to fall flat on my face but He doesn’t wait around the corner with a stern face and angry bandages dipped in told-you-so and disinfectant. Instead he helps me up dusts away the pain and reminds me of my divine mandate to share the lessons I’ve learnt. There isn’t one single tear I’ve ever shed that hasn’t added purpose to my walk or contributed to the woman I am today. I finally have a new understanding of what it means to be made. I was made in His image and continue to be made into his image with every river I cross.
“Thank you”, is not the first set of words that come to mind when the hounds are on your heels but to be thankful in times of trouble reminds us that the fight has never been ours. When we look at how far we’ve come there are instances where we were helpless and were it not for God’s covering and the stern looks our mothers shot at us whenever we chattered too excitedly to the guests we really would have been destroyed.
These days I choose to thank you God over no thank you God because I’ve made enough woopsies to know when to stop relying on my own judgement and this is exactly one of those instances. My feelings are all over the place but thank God He is not. I fall asleep at the wheel sometimes but thank God He doesn’t. I get cocky and take on more than I can handle but thank God He doesn’t. I really could keep going but I think you get the point.
My prayer today is for the broken hearted, I just want to thank God for drawing near to us. With a gaping hole where you have pulled out the thorn thank you that you will fill it with your love and a stronger drive to make it. Amen
